I am struggling with so many covid related issues...
Good days are good...
but they are always followed by bad, or even worse, days.
There is no rhyme or reason.
No pattern.
No predictability.
No end in sight...
just endless doctors and tests and a brain that suddenly stops working...
often mid thought...
and we are left stuttering and frantically combing through our recent memory to try to figure out what it is we just lost...
oftentimes the memory is just gone.
Like a puff of smoke on a breeze.
Never to be recovered.
My hope is that by being transparent in my struggles, others will feel validated, less alone, and perhaps those unaffected or fully recovered with no long term affects will find compassion and empathy for us...
the long haulers who feel like we are losing a battle against an enemy we can not see.
Please read the article below...
This is an article that I hope will jog law makers to do more for us as we feel forgotten and unseen...
and many are near their breaking point
Many days I feel able to overcome the constant thrumming in my head with the never ending headache and body pains, joint stiffness and myriad other neurological, and emotional trials.
But some days...
The days when I cannot get out of bed, days when the pain, the dizziness, the never ending numbness and burning and sweating and exhaustion are too much to bear...
I remember that I am still here, on the planet.
That I still have a purpose . Article Written by Covid Long Hauler 8 months in
A chance to make a difference in the world.
And even on those "off" days...
I find a TRIUMPH....
because I refuse to give up or give in.
Struggles and Triumphs...
Sometimes IT IS HARD to tell the difference.
